In The Face of Danger

In my eyes I'm not good enough for a person.

In my mind all I hear is negativity.

All I hear is...

You're too fat.

You have way to much face acne.

He doesn't love you, if all you do is upset him.

You're overachieving yourself.

He could find better.

I try and shut those little things that keep breaking me down, and I think he does love me, especially for who I am, and nothing's going to change that about him. I may get him mad, and he may get me mad but I can't change who he is. I love him for that. 

Insecurities: Lack of confidence or assurance; self-doubt.

Today women in the world are too insecure to notice that they are beautiful. The fact that you need to express your insecurities by not hiding behind a wall and talking, and being scared. Like I did..

I stopped hiding being a wall, and expressed myself. I can't hold my anger in sometimes especially now. I really can't explain why anyway. 

I'm just a mess and I'm emotional. For what reason I don't know. Help me, now.

-Andrea

Doing it wrong

Watching you walk into that court room was the most painful thing I could ever do.

I couldn't just stand there and watch you walk in there and that be the last I see of you, specially if you're going in there to be for about six months to a year.. I'd miss everything about you.

I'd miss..
Your smile,
Your laughs,
Your stubborn ass,
Your terrible farts,
Your anger,
Your hand in mine,
Your hand stroking my face at night,
Your eyes,
mostly I'd miss fighting with you over what?
..Something stupid. Like most relationship fights.

I just don't one night to be an argument, that's bad enough to get you to do something bad, like get arrested.. and the last time I saw you, the last time I kissed you, the last time I saw everything I loved about you.

-Andrea