So here's where I'll pick up.
To someone who cares about another it's hard to feel their pain on the other line of the love string, and then again.. It's easy to spot how/what they feel. To give hurt to someone who's giving hurt to you, it never once crosses your mind that maybe... you're just not right. You're actually quite wrong, you've fought, you've sacraficed.. but for what?
I fight, and I sacrafice a lot for my relationships, and I learn from them. I fight for who I love, and what I'm willing to fix for them not to leave. I sacrafice my trust, respect, and time for other people sometimes. Friends have always, in a way, come first. I may not show it as well I should, but they always have because in relationships you have your significant other but in reality they can only be there for so long. Friends are there to help pick up the pieces they broke, and glue them back together.
This blog is harder to write then normal, since I'm coming out of my emotions. My life has always been a hard one, and i'm not going to sit here and explain it over and over. I'm not also here to brag/moup about what's gone on. Everyone's life is going to go through those IMPOSSIBLE struggles, that soon become easier to face. My worst enemy is my confidence, my self-esteem, and/or my emotions. I get lost in the moment of reaction and I don't come down to reality. It sucks. For example, I can't get a job. In the economy today, it's like a life or death (or for reality sakes homeless death) situations. You have to meet certain requirements, to which can be REALLY hard without previous employment. Then you have to think about cars, houses, rent, or even college tuition yada yada.
Basically what I'm trying to say is... Life. Sucks.
Love can suck, unless you're willing to really risk a lot of your part, emotion wise, or you could be the fuck it type.
Friends.. can rule. haha. <3
Live. Love. and specially Laugh.
Andrea<3
