There's things going on in my head that I just can't figure out.
My dreams are big, but my faith is out.
I come to a realization that all I hoped is gone, I've been drowning in doubt.
I sit here and think "My kids deserve the best" but that's not what's turning out, I can't wrap my head around the constant worry and struggle.
I can't help but think that maybe my kids won't have their father and that they'll hate their mother for the situations they have currently.
I'm a monster in the closet and I can't escape the screams.
My face is numb and I can't seem to move.
I'm lost in my mind while I have these faces stare, judging the things I do like I care.
Currently as I type, I get balls thrown at my legs and screams in my ear. Mommy life for me and I'm not complaining either because my children deserve the best even if their father isn't around. I'm always afraid of being a single mom because that's not what family is all about.
My emotions are scarce in my head as I cry, scream and laugh. You could swear I'm bipolar but I swear I'm not the best.. at controlling what's going on, I've always been the type to just 'go with the flow'. I'll crush for a couple days just to turn it down because I feel I don't deserve it, because what's the point of another heart break.
