Those moments where we would fight about who loves each other more;
Those stupid little arguments we had;
Those moments where I actually decided to standup for something I know and believe in;
Those moments where I stood by your side when you got kicked out;
Those moments where we would watch a movie before bed;
Those moments where we found the little dipper. Three times;
Those moments where I got you to pet a horse;
Those moments where kids worked you out with a tire swing;
Those moments where I supported you in your decisions, regardless if I didn't like them or not;
Those moments where we kiss, and it be like fireworks on the fourth of july;
Those moments where I took care of you and you took care of me;
Those moments where we get so into a game;
Those moments where I looked into your eyes and saw the world;
Those moments where I helped you through your mom's fights with you;
Those moments where my family supported you;
Those moments where I kept you updated on the Chicago Bulls game and got so into it;
Those moments.
Those
Moments.
Nothing will ever change how I feel about you, nothing will ever change the fact that I will forever express the way I feel about you to everyone. You make me so happy, yet so angry. You say mean things, and you do mean things. You yell, you punch walls, you walk away. Your anger scares me the most.
This isn't the way anyone should spend their summer. This isn't a relationship anyone should get involved in. Something I've learned about guys is... When they need their space. They need their space.
You get angry.. quite easily. You get mad at me because I get mad easily, and at stupid things. Well congratulations.. You got your wish, You got rid of the person that helped you through all those hard times, who put up with all your yelling, put downs, and ran after you when you got mad. I put up with so much.
So much.
You tell me, you want us to get pregnant because you want him/her to be the best thing that makes a change in your life, then when your angry you tell me I don't have the body for a baby and that i'll mess my body up. That's something you really tell someone. When I need someone to talk to other than you, I go to your friends, because they know you more than I do in certain things. My heart since day one told me that you needed love, just ONE kiss can tell you so much. I knew that I was going to love you, from the moment you kissed me. The moment I decided that I couldn't wait to be yours. I sat there on that step on the second week of shorts and helped you through your break up with her, I helped you when you were about the cry. I understood, as much as I could! My heart was in your hands by the time you asked me out, maybe even before that. You've made me have endless smiles, laughs, frowns, and cries, but nothing will ever make me stop having an endless love for you. You may mess things up every now and then but you cannot sit there and tell me that you never loved me, and that you never meant that I was the best thing that happened to you, that me and the kids were. You cannot sit there and tell me that I, MYSELF, was lying to you since day one. I'll do what you say. I'll leave you alone, forever.
If that's what you please. Just know you're the best thing that has improved my life since my ex. You're amazing Austin T. Schreiber. You don't understand how much you've impacted my life, for the better and the worst.
I'm just making my final goodbyes before letting loose, and just saying my do's. Someone like you deserves the best, and I deserve the worst. Just like you wished upon me.
I love you
Always and Forever
Promise.
...Goodbye.
...-Andrea...
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